i love you, rosa

current mood: determined
So often, people readily surrender to the whims of their hearts. The very moment doubt steps onto the ballroom floor of great joy, the parquetry scuffs.
Most surrender to a great, wrongful cliche in their relationships: there is a woefully pervasive idea, that in a partnership, nothing should feel strange - nothing should ever make you question yourself, and the very presense of a second thought is like a swarm of rats into a grey and sickly villiage.
For what is the prison of human existene- a jail cell with roses climbing the bars, for certain -there is a remarkable distance between people. We cannot truly communicate with one another - we are seperate bodies and minds with no way to meld, and, ironically, the complexity of human communication which afforded us our great individuality often serves to only prevent us even further from expressing it and understanding one-another.
It isn't so remarkable, then, that doubt shrouds our view, and we retreat into ourselves.
When two people have tried to build a bridge to cover their distance, it is by very nature rickety. You cannot truly trust the person on the other side, and you cannot tell if it is a bad site to build upon - but for happiness, it is a leap - or walk - of faith - and thankfully, you have someone steadying the ropes for you.
When you throw the ropes across and lay down the planks, it does not end there, though. As you both cross over again and again, wood wears and ropes split - the confidence you've built comes under trial, and you think...
Is it worth it to repair?
Is it worth it to bring a hammer and nails at the risk of falling?
There is nothing profound about these doubts - but there is something we should all question with a greater priority -
Is it worth it to let everything go to waste?
For all your efforts against and adapting to the human boundaries, wouldn't it be so insulting to those tireless times of effort to abandon all for what is a few moments' doubt? Is it worth leaving the wood to rot and ropes to rip because it is the most common solution?
I think we should repair and remodel.







